Well we spent the weekend at home together working on our new house and got along pretty well. I slipped up a little on Sunday morning, being a little groudhy when I got up, but he did'nt seem to mind. Caught another email from OW to him and I think he is planning to sneak her over to our place again on Tues when I am at work. I hate this. I want to come home on Tues and say "Why does this house smell like crotch rot?", but I can't.
On the other hand, I have been thinking, and I have to wonder why I want him back. He is a liar and cheater and why do I have to be treated this way? Do I want this type of person in my life? I am hoping that he will see the light with OW and come back, but sometimes I have fantasies of just laughing in his face and saying I don't want you anymore, just when he wants me back. Then I think of the 6 or 7 fantastic years we had. I have never felt so loved and cherished in my life. I want that again. He used to treat me like a princess and I want him to want to treat me like that again. So while I waver and swing between do I want him or not..all I have to do is think about those great years.
