HI Corri, I should put this on the jouurnal thread, but we've become one big fused family here anyway.
I am in the midst of starting up a new career...it is very exciting, and I do feel passionate about it. But here is the thing...multitasking is not my forte; I tend to focus my energies on a thing at a time, and I like to do things well. I was like this with my original work ( I even hold an MD degree) and with raising the kids. And you have been able to see the energy and focus it took to get a grip on my marital problems....who knew it would take so long and that my marriage was so incredibly far gone?
What is missing in my life is balance. I have yet to learn to wear different hats throughout the course of the day. I know I can't take my H for granted as I resurrect a career identity, and we are both going to watch out for that this time. He said he's going to come forward when he feels neglected, and I will try to remember to keep my relationship/sexual hat on.
I don't know why I have lived my life feeling I have to do it all alone, and that is the biggest lesson I have learned, to draw on the support of others and bring people along with me on the journey ( see, IC, you are not the only one guilty of this). I have invited God to come along, but God has been there the whole time, laughing at me.
Corri, I am so happy you continued to post here...I have been blessed having those Corri consults, and if you need me for anything, just say the word.
