789 - hi! I'm trying to catch up on everyone who's joining us for the GAL weekend in Sonoma (anyone who's interested - check out the Just for Fun forum).
Wow... it blows me away every time I read SUCH similar stories. Sounds like you and I are in really similar spots mentally right now.
I totally get what you're saying about her wanting you to be the "bad guy." I alternate between thinking that and wondering if my H came back just to "prove" to me that it won't work.
In my case H is/was the WAS and was the one to move out. We had a great "honeymoon" period when he came back, but when he started withdrawing again, in the heat of an argument, I asked "So, what? This was all a trick just to get back in the damn house and force ME to be the one to move??" Followed by some other choice words. Yeah not a proud moment.. but I bet you can relate.
What's helped me and might help you - carve out some space for yourself and really make it your own. Feeling like a guest (and one who has overstayed their welcome at that) is NO FUN. So pick a room or part of a room or whatever, make it your own, and "move" there for awhile. I'm doing this myself right now - haven't even "moved" yet but just working on the area and making it mine has been incredibly therapeutic. Take your mind TOTALLY off your W and M for awhile and see how you feel.. it'll give you BOTH some time to think without the trauma of moving again.
Just a thought..
Can't wait to meet you in December! I know you said 90% yes but I'm being optimistic .
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
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