Dealing with knowing and not saying anything

[Daz_Con]

Last night went good, I am always pursuing though, its so hard to stop, it got late, she fell asleep on the floor, when she woke up, I asked her if she would like to stay, of course she says no. I should have just played it cool and let her leave after the movie. Show a 180, try harder next time We had a few R talks, just by chance, nothing on pirpose. First was about money, second was about SS11, he feels treated unfairly, that I always favor my D12, this I think is one of the motivators of our S, I listedned to her, I tend to interupt, so working on that, and told her I was working to fix that with him, he is ADHD and was a tough raise, but getting better now, she told me she sees I am working on it. The kids were all over us watching the movie, we put S3 to bed after, she laied down with him, I snuggled up with her, rubbed her back a little, Siad I havent been able to touch you all night, she responded, I know I was trying!!, the kids were just a pain in the butt. Nice sign :o) She initiated a nice goodnight kiss, and went home. Good overall I think.
This AM I called and asked her to go to breakfast with the fam,. she accepted, it went very nice, lots of smiles and laughs. I found out through the kids she has told them that OM is not allowed over anymore!!! Not sure if it is just when the kids are there, but a step in the right direction, happy the kids will not be exposed to him right now, irregardless what she does with her free time. The guy is a slime ball for being involved with a family on the rocks, and glad she has come to her senses with that, I am happy to see the good mom again.

She told me last night she is going through stages, she seems very confused, so my actions are very important now, need to keep my best foot foward when we see each other, I am always whistling, in a good mood when she is around. Nice hollidays may have a positive impact, I am looking foward to them. I will keep up DBing, I will not call her for the rest of the day, or tommorow, I am going to my friends S3 bday party today, strange her not going, I did not invite her either. Giving her space when I can, getting time to become more attractive to her when I can to.

Thanks MCC, I agree with you,. the time is good when it can be had, even if it ends, this time is still that much more I can spend with my fam, even as the strange shell it is. I was feeling the same way, just need to hear it sometimes, it is so hard to judge from the inside what is right and wrong