NikkiB #22 (almost separated)

[NikB]

Thanks for checking in, Donna! I'm with ya.. wish this were a straight(er) line at times. Nice to be on an upswing or more level spot, though. Seems we both are maybe.

You are so sweet. I honestly think deep down we are ALL wonderful people.. it's the bringing it out that counts. (and can be soo hard, especially when we're hurting).

On my room, I will definitely post pictures!! I should've taken some true "before" shots just for perspective.. but I'll take some in progress and afters, for sure. I hope it's not a big let down.. it's really a TINY room. It may be tied with my college dorm room (I had a "single") in terms of tiny-ness. It's nothing fancy or grand or anything, just a space of my own. That said though I AM pretty excited about it. It's funny how much I'm really getting into this. Maybe I'm a decorator at heart and never knew it...

Tonight was funny. I have a lot of weekend plans but for tonight I didn't have specific plans. I just knew I DID NOT want to be home. Realized it when it was 6:30 at work on a FRIDAY and I was still procrastinating on leaving, making up stuff to do that could really wait til Monday (or Tuesday..). Especially knowing H will be gone all day tomorrow and Sun it was kind of silly as I have a ton of "me time" in the house this weekend. But I just really didn't want to be home w/him. I finally decided fine, go DO something, at least.

So, just started driving around and doing whatever struck me as a good idea at the time. I got to see the aforementioned bed / futon set up and I actually think it'll work, if I can just get the dang thing delivered. Latest plan is prior to noon tomorrow.. if they mess it up again forget it, but I'm giving them one more shot.

I pretty much closed down Lowe's, Linens 'n' Things, and then Target.. hehe. 99% browsing but got a few things for my room too. I'm trying to figure out the easiest possible way to switch from sofa to bed to sofa... so that it looks good, and so I actually DO it every day instead of either having a bed set up in my "living" room all the time, or crunching myself up on the couch sized version at night. I think I have it now, hopefully. Two flat sheets, a thin cotton blanket, and over all that an oversized microsuede down throw in light blue. At night that'll be my comforter/quilt, and during the day I'm hoping I can pile up the sheets/blanket on one side of the sofa, and drape the throw over it and the back of the sofa... we'll see.

I did get a featherbed for comfort just in case, but I hope to return it if the sofa/bed itself is comfy enough. I have no idea how to "hide" or easily take that thing off daily.

I overpaid for a throw pillow that I LOVE (with my coupon only $15 though..). It's a muted beige shade like most of the blankets etc, but with a kind of arsty looking palm tree in the middle that has a lot of various blue and green tones in it. Perfect to bring together all the room colors. I got some very cheap throw pillows at Target that match it - so plan on the palm tree pillow in the middle or off to one side, surrounded by the blue/green pillows and the blue throw... should be pretty, I hope.

For the bathroom I got the 'hammock' soap holder that I'll use more as a ring/earring holder, and the beach umbrella toothbrush holder. I also got a plain (and much cheaper) traditional blue soap/lotion dispenser and cup. It looks cute but not over the top that way I think.

I have been spending too much $$ lately.. but also found out today my year-end bonus will be more than I expected, so I think I can pay for all this craziness fairly easily. And I've been careful that most of it's useful D or not.. so trying not to feel too guilty.

H was funny tonight, I got home fairly late and he was watching a movie that was almost over. We talked about his day, some stuff at work (all H related).. seemed good. But I noticed he kept looking at me funny and not saying much. Just before bed he said "so..well.. so.. I mean.. where'd you go tonight?" [funny tone.. like, "I know I have no right to ask but I want to know" is how I took it].

I said "oh just out and about" (my new vague answer for everything). Then said "Had fun though, thanks for asking!" He pushed a bit more, so rather than share where I went I shared what I didn't do.. "I was so bummed, a friend asked me out for Thai food but I just couldn't go with my peanut/shellfish allergies.. too dangerous. Glad I had fun anyway though."

My trunk meanwhile is PACKED with pillows and bedding.. . Nowhere to put them til the bed arrives, so I'll check all that out tomorrow.