What is reasonable and what is not?

[Startingover2]

UGGHH....I just need to post here or I will end up saying or doing something because I am irritated.

I just feel like I want to tell him off right now. So much pent up anger and anxiety that I have had to hide under a smile and GAL.

I want to tell him I am sick of trying so hard. He left, he screwed up, he filed for divorce...he should be begging me to come back. Instead I feel like I am doing all the work and there is no guarantee he will ever come back. Even when our daughter is born. He may just like this coming in and out when he feels like it and being a dad just when he feels like it.

I needed to post and hopefully someone will respond and tell me to calm down before I say something I will regret.