Thanks, CVA -- I just talk a good game (allegedly)!
Journaling,
Well, W and I met at S5's school for parent/teacher conferences last night. W was pretty distant again, and seemed a little uncomfortable. I don't really know why -- I feel like I've demonstrated enough acceptance of things and have completely backed off of pursuing her in any way, so one might think she'd feel more relaxed around me. I WAS pretty cleaned up and smelling good, but only because I was going to my dance performance team practice directly after the conference (didn't think it would hurt for W to see and smell me this way though ). Maybe she felt I had done this for her -- oh well, who knows and who cares, right?
Anyway, just lots of eye contact avoidance. We did laugh about a few things (like being unable to find the right hallway and classroom, things the teacher mentioned about S5, etc), but overall there was some obvious distance, I think. I wasn't really bothered by it though -- just more of the same from her, that's all. Pretty used to it by now, and with having no expectations, it makes accepting it SO much easier. We got outside, brief comments about S5 and school as we walked to our cars, then said goodbye and parted ways.
She called this morning and left a message on my phone to call her back at work so she could wish D4 happy B-day (she's 4 today!). I called her back about 90 min later and let her talk with D4 for a while. I did overhear W ask D4 what we were doing, but I'm pretty sure it was just small talk with D4 and had nothing to do with me. I got back on the phone after a few minutes, reiterated the b-day party plans for tomorrow, then said, "Well, see you tomorrow," and initiated the hang up first.
That's pretty much it -- the song remains the same with my sitch. I'm not sure if W is bringing her BF to D4's party or not, but if she does I'm going to do my best to continue communicating in a friendly manner with him, and just focus on making D4's party a great time for her and her friends.
). Maybe she felt I had done this for her -- oh well, who knows and who cares, right?
