Why can't I do this....

[houndfan]

So I just got back from my IC and it was a mess. He was basically telling me that this effort is hopeless and that some of the signs that I have seen from DW have been just confusion in her head.

So I said, why would she bring up that I can not live too close to her because she does not want this relationship to turn into a booty call.

Why does she occassionally let me see her naked etc....

Anyway, he didn't really give me any answer other than the what I already knew which is to fix me first and move on.

But, I have never been at this point where I have loved her so much and realize what it really feels like to love her. I feel myself having more love for my kids and my job and everything. Now that the blinders are off and I can admit that I have to address my own issues the fear and pain have diminished.

So do I follow my IC direction and let go and give up (really what was said) or do I press on. I really respect this guy, and he has really made an impact in my life but c'mon.

I can describe the pain that this is causing me, yet at the same time the relief that I am finally exposed.

I need to really pray on this one....