True. So true. Every road has its bumps. Thanks for validating. \:\) I truly don't think I made a bad choice in marrying him. If it was wrong, I would have known it. It's just heartbreaking to be dealing with this sitch when it should have been different. But, I believe challenges come into our lives to provide opportunities for us to learn and grow and change...and I am glad that I have and will continue to become better through all this.

Just so I don't hijack your thread Peace, here's the low down on what's coming up in my sitch:

H let me know the other morning that the work trip he's been putting off for several months will likely begin this weekend. Our agreement when he moved home in April was that there would be no more traveling alone, but reality is that I just can't leave the kids...our families are all out of town or crazy busy, and there's no one to leave them with. H refuses to drag them along. Not that a week on the road with toddlers is super appealing to me either. H also refuses to find new employment.

So, last night we had a nice conversation...about a lot of things, all light topics. I mentioned that I don't think I'll be able to get away, he discussed his tentative itinerary and suggested that I fly down to meet him at some point in the trip so we can go do something fun.

I truly understand that he has to be his own boss and I can't follow behind him everywhere he goes. I couldn't resist asking if he'll be a good boy. He said, "Yes, I'll be a good boy." I felt so stupid after saying that, because, HELLO, the man can and has lied. Alot. I know I have to let this go. For me.

So, overall, I'm okay with him going, just trying to cope with the what-ifs again.

Me-36
H-36
3 young children
Married-14y