New to Piecing -- again

[peaceful_spirit]

Fortunately, the last few days have been much better than the days before that.

I started out the week with some bad DBing...for some reason (even though I know better), I was initiating R talks, being suspicious, checking the cell phone, etc... And I've been down this path before wehre i start doing these things, then H pulls away, then I start to resent him, he pulls away... etc... But this time, we managed not to let that happen.

Tuesday, which was the day after we had this big long talk about how I was feeling insecure and still having trouble trusting him, I sent him a TM saying, "I love you and I have faith in you. In case you were wondering". He wrote back, "Thanks. I love you, too".

The rest of the week was better. The other day, I initiated some playful banter (about sex), which then led to following through on the banter. So, that got us back onto good footing.

Last night, my parents picked up the kids for dinner and kept them overnight. So H and I went out for drinks and apps. Came home, went our separate ways for a few hours, then watched an hour of football (for him) and an hour of Gray's Anatomy(for me). Snuggled in bed for a bit this morning and talked about the things we want to do to the house.

I am finding that I have to stop myself from being suspicious adn asking lots of probing questions. Sometiems I don't even realize I'm doing it. I just need to be aware of my own behavior.

Anyway, it was a good few days.