Still trying - Not very well

[limbo]

Thanks LN what you say doesn make sense! And its very helpful.

I really need to stop my pity party!

My H and I dialogued last night about creating initmacy, but not sexual, at retro they seperate the 2...So H realizes that he needs alot of work in this department, and I do also, I realize that being sad and unhappy that it can destroy any intimacy, he thought I don't need to do much.
But I was able to tell him how I feel, and I had a really good cry infront of him...just couldn't help it! And I do feel alittle better, but the one thing that struck me was that he never said sorry. He did hold me and tell me he loves me.
So today I am going to start fresh with myself, and make some choice for myself, and work harder to get myself in a better place.