I'm back after 3 days about 75 miles North of Bayji. waited for a C-130 for two days. It was almost like R&R. Head still hurts from the combat roll that the pilots do to avoid anit-aircraft fire. Ughhh!
Got an email from W. She sent me a story S9 wrote. it took him about 3 weeks to do. It was about Christmas. He wrote it from the standpoint of how he remembers Christmas' past, but it is writtedn as though it were this year. he describes going "into his parents room" and all the other fun stuff about Christmas that I remember. How can she send me this story without it ripping her heart out like it does mine? I guess that she is so far beyond this, thatit doesn't bother her at all.
Last year, I slept over on December 24th, and left Christmas night. What's do you all think about these type of arrangements if a couple is divorced. She would probably throw it at me "it's for the kids", but I feel, if it IS for the kids", why would you want to divorce in the first place? I feel that she will expect in future years that I pu the tree up and decorate it with the kids at "the house". I really want no part of this, because if it comes to that, we're NOT a family anymore. Don't try to push the "for the kids" thing on me? I've been trying to formulate this for the past couple of posts, but couldn't quite write waht I felt. I think I may be selfish, but, what about her?
