CVA - Figuring out What's Next

[Not Much Left]

Ok, typing again. Examining the issue behind the anxiety does / is helping. I know exactly why I get anxious about what is going on right now. Total uncertainty, still, even though there seems to be certainty on the D front. Not knowing what to expect or what reaction she is going to have or that little, subtle jab, is frustrating. When someone treats me w/ complete neutrality, I get incredibly frustrated. Normally, I would just not associate w/ that person, however, in this case, I have to.

I have dinner w/ them and there is just NO talking to *me*. I have this sneeking suspicion I now know how it feels to not want to be around someone becuase you know at any time they could say something that is like a kick in the stomach or a jab that chips away at your self confidence. Hmmmmm, I think I am on to something....she did not / does not want to be around me, why, she was afraid of everthing that came out of my mouth, regardless of intent.

[Not Much Left]

BTW, wathcing the movie "Because I Sad So" with Diane Keaton, Mandy Moore, Lauren Graham. Mandy Moore is really, really cute and sexy. They show her in a thong, very nice. Any Mandy Moore's out there, too high an expectation?


See, cant get rid of CVA, I cant get rid of him either.

[Not Much Left]

So while I'm on the subject, Eva Mendez is super hot in Ghostrider. GD, H, others, who are your top 5?

I would go with Vanessa Marcil, Eva Memdez, and of course for my elderly stage, Jen Aniston and Heather Locklear, and if your forcing me, ok, I would have to say......Jessica Biel and Alba, oooh, wait, what about Salma Hayek, Peneolpe Cruz, oh crap, too many to put in a top 5....

[Handful of Rain]

CVA I know the uncertainty sucks! I deal with that one on almost a regular basis, I think we all do, What helps me to get through is knowing that one thing IS for certain, is that God loves me and wants me to be happy, so I know that I will be OK, no matter the outcome. Give your uncertainty to God, let Him help you with overcoming it.

BTW, I feel better now, thanks for your words on my thread, Strong Rain is BACK. Take care.

[Gone Dancin']

GD, H, others, who are your top 5?

Let's see...

1. Jessica Alba
2. Jessica Alba
3. Jessica Alba
4. Jessica Alba
5. Jessica Alba

How's that list?

GD

[Gone Dancin']

Oh, and a close 6th are Amanda Bines and that lead girl from the new movie Knocked Up (Katherine Heigl)

[Not Much Left]

GD? How about the Olson Twins for crying out loud!!! Amanda Bines? That is young even for a 20 yr old. Jeeeeeeez. Do agree on the Knocked Up girl and whats her name the other super young blonde whose name escapes me.....she played the daughter in that moveie w/ Dennis Quaid where the young kid comes in and is his boss then gets involved with her....????

Both Jessica's I think would be good, he he.

[Gone Dancin']

What do you mean, CVA -- Amanda Bynes is 20 (what's wrong with being attracted to her?). She's freakin' smokin' hot! Man, you're making me feel guilty, or something!

[Not Much Left]

Sorry man! She is smokin, just watched her grow up w/ my daughter. Same as Hilary Duff, she is hot too! But...

[Puddle]

Hey CVA,

GD? How about the Olson Twins for crying out loud!!! Amanda Bines? That is young even for a 20 yr old. Jeeeeeeez.

Wow, so there is a limit somewhere, a line you wouldn't cross.

Hate to remind you, but GD is *28*. That's like you being attracted to a 36-year-old. He'd even be too young for me!

Knew you couldn't stay down long. How you doing, CVA?

Take care.