Thanks for the advice. Will try harder to make positive comments, without any follow through.

Going to set a goal not to have more than 2 drinks per day.(short term goal) Hopefully can return to when I only drank socially.(long term goal) Also need to deal with excessive smoking, but one goal at a time. Fear these goals are hard to achieve without jeopardizing my complimentary attitude, but still,I must press forward on my life.

Yesterday was better, told S. about my goals and she seemed very supportive. This should help, but I find when I get emotionally edgy, this supportiveness disappears. Oh well.

Feeling rather calm and relaxed compared to 2 days ago, Hope that feeling remains for a few days.

Going to wander around and see how others are now.

Later