Still trying - Not very well

[limbo]

Thanks Cat!

I don't feel hopeless yet, just...hurt I guess, more then ever before in my life...I know I have to come to terms with this.
We have talked some about this, however he doesn't have really a good explaination either...and I guess this is cause of frustration for me too!
I guess because I feel, what will stop it from happening again, sure its nice to get attention from the opposite sex, it makes us feel better, but for most of that its only that, and we move on and not give it a second thought, but what happens if someone else bats there eye lids at him.
I worry about this, as I know we all do, I guess I just don't want to fall back and believe we are going to be ok, and then bang something else happens.
Because I know for me that will be it!

Enough of my ranting!!! I promise I am going to get a sunnier out look if it kills me!!!!