Oh, I know. ;\) I'm not dumb. I'm just not certain how to get past that level of denial with him. I think I was close last night...when he said "Well, if I am in denial..." lol Uh, duh.

xh has admitted to that R high thing before. He was going to SLA meetings. We even talked about it a bit last night... That the attention-getting behaviors were just a way of distracting him from what the pain is really about. It's a lot like self-medicating...only he doesn't do the alcohol or drugs thing.

Per Rollercoaster's advice, I've been digging through some of M Go Blue's old threads. Good read...

Azhira

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