How can someone who says that they love me, do that...I would never do that. ====================== honey, I know, I've asked myself so many times the same question..then I looked back at what I did to contribute to the fall of my M. I'm not putting blame in you, but in our pain we forget the big picture, how it all came to be, it wasn't a honeymoon at home when the As happened right? My H betrayed me with an op, but in my way I betrayed my H in many other ways.
No one said you had to pretend nothing happened, it is sad but our Hs are not ready to face our hurts and capable to see the damage they've created in our hearts. Will they ever be ready? maybe, dont' know.. but I won't hold my pain until my H is able to do so, he is a broken confused soul and I have put my pain on the Lord's hands.
and just a feeling of I can't do it ==================== Remember, dont' think with your emotions. Make a decision, just like I expect my H to decide to fix our M instead of waiting for an "emotion" to tell him to do it. Grieve, yes, you are in all your right, he's hurt you, you have that right. But don't let unforgiveness be the reason you aren't willing to stay in the M. He's going to C, went to Retr., he isnt' refusing to work on you guys.
Is there a way you can time some off to be alone? You need sometime to think. Personally, you sound depressed hon.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
