Well moving day is getting closer... Me leaving is taking a toll on my W. She is really concern about finances and such. She is getting an apointment today to see a counselor. I hope the c can help her straighten out her feeling and emotions and her life. It doesnt matter if the C can save my M or not. What matters right now is that the C help my W. I am getting really concerned about her. She is about to the point of a mental break down. I think a lot of it has to do to the fact that I am moving and all the things that she could depend on me for are now going to be her responsibility now. I hope this separation can help save our marriage. She keeps telling me that almost all the people on here that have saved there M's separated for a while, so thats what we should do too. She says she has never really been on her own. So she needs that now. i dont want to do it alone. I love the security that I feel by being married. knowing that I dont have to go it alone. Thats why moving is kiiling me so much. I am going it alone again. Walking away from my loved ones. By moving I feel like I am walking away from my marriage. I feel like once I am gone she wont ever want to be married to me. But then again maybe some time alone will make her realize what she had in me and want me back. I just dont know. W told me that me leaving doesnt mean that our M is over. So I have to take her word for it. I have to keep reminding myself that of my goals, so I dont get tooooooo depressed.
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
