My Wife wants out..still!!

[dadtotwo]

Had a small blowout earlier in the day we were to go to medition.I was concerned that the mediator was the attorney she consulted with twice before. I called the attorney and expressed my concern to which the attorney removed herself from the mediation process. My W got really angry and proceeded to find a new mediator from the yellow pages(my M has gone to being ended via the yellow pages).

We went to the new mediator and she was fully prepared with her checkbook to pay 1/2 the cost and she wants me to pay the other 1/2. I said:"I don't want to be here and I have to pay 1/2"?? Then the attorney explained the process and my W was so anxious to get started but we had not even discussed one issue before arriving for the mediation.

She was getting frustrated that I was being uncooperative so I asked her to go outside so we could talk. She asked why I was being difficult and why I was dragging my feet. Once again, I told her that I wasn't ready for such important decisions and was not ready to break apart our family.

I then told her that I want 50/50 custody and she didn't blink an eye and asked how I would manage with work. I said I have it all planned out but I must admit I was totally shocked that she agreed so easily. Makes me wonder if she even cares about her children or is just being free making her selfish??

She said that she has been very cooperative in letting me see the kids whenever I wanted and she mentioned that I asked to have the kids for T-Day dinner. She said that she was ok with it even though her whole family(cousins and all) were coming and our kids would not be there until dessert by which time every one will have left so it would be my kids her and her parents only.

She said some very hurtful things in that I could not support our family then and I am not supporting them now(because I won't give her hundreds and hundreds of dollars per week). She continues to be firm that this is what must be because she cannot count on me for financial support and that I ruined our financial future. Also saying that if I planned our finances as well as I prepared for our meeting that we would probably not be in this position.

She says she prays for me every week at church that I will get myself together and find someone that makes me happy(how cruel)!! She is as determined as ever to get rid of me and move on.

Her willingness to agree to anything clearly shows to me how much she wants to be free to be with OM. This agreement will be about our children's well being for the next 14 years+. Her pushing me to just get it done so we can move on is just so hurtful in that I can be discarded and she doesn't seem to consider that she will not be with her children half the time every week.

Just not a very good situation and I am looking forward to all those that wish to comment.