W is seeking out the help of a counselor. She is supposed to make an appointment today. Baby steps.
She came to me last night and told me that she ended it with one of the 2 om's..... She told him she just wanted to be friends. He went off on her. Cussing and such. I am proud of her for ending it and shocked that she was able to talk to me about it. Now if she can stick to it and end the other affair. She seemed to be in good spirits afterwards. Singing and such last night.
I actualy feel like she wants to come back to me but is afraid if her past about what she has done comes out that I will drop her. I have tried to re-assure her that what is in the past is behind us and that all we have to do is look to the future. I have already imagined her doing the worst things I can think of, so of coarse the truth cant be that bad or worse. Right? Anyways still in limbo land with W and work. Work keeps putting off the date at wich I will know when I am going to move or even if I have to. I am ready to move. I feel w will move too in the end. But it would be a new start in a new environment for the both of us. She hates her job so she would be able to find a new one. But if I dont have to move thats fine too. I am just impatient because its such a big event in my life, not knowing sucks.
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
