Still trying - Not very well

[cat03]

I know my H is here and working on us the best he can
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He could just be coasting along hoping some sort of "emotion" would come to him and enable him to change things, like my H.

Focus on whatever goodness is in your M now, on every bit last piece of it ok? fight your fear. He's actually trying, in his own way, at his pace, remember that, we all have a different internal clock. Stay strong, what's happened is gone, dont' let it ruin what you could be having now.