thanks for understanding. I'll get over this funk, I will, just need to get back to GAL on my own. I tend to hibernate in the winter, and have found myself heading in that direction, so then when I see h having a great time/doing fun stuff, I resent it, and honestly, I only have myself to blame. but the thing is, I like hibernating, too, at least a little bit. I need to find my balance.
I am heading to VA with the kids in a couple of weeks, but think I need a trip just on my own, at least a long weekend somewhere. will start looking into it. at the very least, I can go visit a friend somewhere...hope a plane friday and be back by sunday even, so h could be on childcare duty and I don't have to try to figure something out on that front.
I have therapy today, which will be good. still trying to find my balance between dark to h, but at the same time, not hostile. It feels hostile to me, to not chit chat and such. but I think that's part of my problem...I'm an open, friendly person. its my nature. being short with someone isn't, it really goes against the grain for me. but at the same time, being open and friendly right now with h just ends up hurting me, because I am not detached enough to leave it like that...I can't seem to help but read into stuff, and he can't seem to help leading me along a bit (the sex, the comments about certain things).
thankfully everyone seems to be feeling better in my household, cold wise, so everyone is off to school this morning. yay! am going to try to make the evening hours at the gym with the kids, will depend on how they are doing. wish they had earlier afternoon childcare hours there. but I definitely need the w/o. if not, well, tae bo at home I suppose.
not much else going on. watched the final 2 eps of cold feet last night. well, not the final 2, the final 2 of season 3. just found out it went to 5 seasons, but netflix doesn't have the last 2 seasons...ugh. hate that. but the way season 3 ended, I suppose I can just pretend that was the series finale. kind of nice, actually, since one of the couples who ended up splitting due to infidelity found their way back to each other.
well, off to feed the masses. hope all of you are well. thanks for the support, all, I really do appreciate it.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
