Well picked up Db on Monday. I also got a book called Divorce proof your marriage by the Rosbergs. Its a very good Christian based book. My wife got it in the mail and started reading it when she got home. I called that evening to see how the kids were and she was reading it and crying. She told me that she wants to do what is right and save our marriage. She told me that she needs to move with me to be able to stay away from the temptations that are at home. Last night she told me she thinks she needs to stay here when I move because we need to separate so she can get her head clear. It has been explained to me that she is sitting on the fence just swaying in the breaze. I feel like the breeze has been blowing a lot in the last couple of days. I have been giving her, her space. I havent been initiating any R talks. Just listening to her and validating her feelings. No intimate relations in almost 2 weeks. Thats taking a tol on me too. Despite everything we have always had a great sex life. But now I really dont even want to touch her. I feel emotionally connected to her when we do make love, but she acts like I am just providing a service to her. I have been getting discouraged a lot lately though. My heart aches so much, because I want things between us to be good again. I have noticed that she is complementing me more. And have really noticed a lot of thank you's for little things lately. So I have to just keep up what I am doing and remember that I am it this for the long haul not just the first 10 miles of the race. Got about 100 miles to go.
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
