Down and out...need hope.

[Rob1231]

You are doing fine, T.

I told her my goal was to make each day better than the last, and if we did that, then we wont be working towards a deadline.
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I also told her that I was working out for me and not her and gave her my goals and reasons why I was working out.
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All in all, I think she's noticing that I'm being a much more friendly, happier person. I guess in order to be loved, you have to love yourself first. I feel good about all this and dont feel I'm sacrificing myself for her one bit.
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It made me realize I had to make changes in myself and make myself happy, and figure out what I want.

Excellent... Excellent... Excellent... Excellent!

We kissed in the car. I remember one of my earlier goals that was 'shot' down by my advisors was that I had hoped to kiss her by Thanksgiving. We'll, that was accomplished.

Yep, I was one of the folks who shot that down. Let me ask you - have you spent the time since then doing things in order to make her kiss you? I don't think so. You have done things to make yourself a stronger, happier guy - and as a result, you transformed into someone she wanted to kiss. There is a WORLD of difference there!

Don't worry too much that you are not DBing exactly "by the book." One of the most important rules IN the book is More of what works, less of what doesn't. And that, my friend, you are doing very well. Keep it up!

And don't worry about that 90-day deadline. You said it yourself - just focus on making each day the best you can!