Hmmm...wondering when I'm going to get locked out of this thread...I'd create a new one but I can't think of a new title right now.

My weekend was awesome.

Perhaps it's because it started off so well... meeting up with some fellow DB'ers for dinner and drinks.

Saturday AM I cleaned -- I've mentioned before that I'm organizationally challenged at home..this was my foray into getting rid of some crap. I've got a LONG way to go but it's progress! Saturday night H and I went to see a movie ("A Mighty Wind" -- not as funny as "Best in Show" but a good satire nonetheless). We haven't been going out as much lately and since that's definitely something "that works", I've been feeling the ill effects. AND, I got to feel the "good effects" of hanging out with H...which leads to ...

Sunday -- absolutely the best day that we've had together in a LONG while. First off, drum roll, I got a "morning hug" in bed -- may seem lame but I had been getting "good morning hugs" a month or so ago but they had gone away but I got not one but two over the weekend!!

We went hiking early in the morning. It was great. Spent the afternoon at the Sox game. H. asked me before the game started if it bothered me that we just sat there watching the game, each listening to the radio broadcast on our walkman's. He said "It's worried me that it might bother you that we don't interact much during the games". BIG giant step there...my honest response? No, it doesn't bother me...we're watching the game and I'm with you and that's AOK with me.

Sunday night...leftovers and "Six Feet Under"...lots of holding hands while watching TV.

Yesterday was mellow -- watched my brother in a road race, went to breakfast, to the gym. I had C. in the evening (yuck) and H. met me after for dinner (not yuck!).

What else? Thanked me for cleaning up on Saturday, thanked me for paying the bills yesterday -- both go a LONG way with me...I used to feel so angry that he didn't notice (or didn't comment on) the things that I do...

Last night I went to bed first. When he came in an hour later got a passionate kiss goodnight.

Told me he was going to cook dinner for me some night this week...just called this morning with "a plan" for tonight -- short term goal #2 achieved! It's been weeks since H. planned something for us to do together.

I wondered a time or two this weekend -- what if I'm setting myself up? What if I get hurt all over again? Decided that loving my H. as much as I can without fear (or with the fear but not constraining myself from it) can only be a GOOD thing...no matter what the outcome.

Gotta set some more short term goals since both have been met...

Sage

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.