wantlove,
Eventually you will come to a place where you MOVE. Just get up and start DOING. In general. I know how this crisis can freeze you up inside and out. I've been there.
It takes time. You can't do it until you are ready. I am sorry you are at the hardest point in this, but time actually will help you. It did for me.
I always say around here, if I can come this far and feel better, anyone else can, too, because I was very depressed when my Husband left.
love,
Hope


Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.