Still trying - Not very well

[Heartbroken]

Hang in their Limbo,

You really need to get into the PRESENT MOMENT and try and keep yourself there. Your thought attacks get you off track and it sprirals us out of control. I know I am just as bad as you - I was so so so sad yesterday (I saw the OW at school) and broke down with H last night. We have been dialogue'ing well enough but he seems to keep it light - which I am just going to go with the flow and happy that he's still trying.

I understand about being so tired - August has been a year for me of making changes and sticking to them and yet H does not trust they will stay WTH - WHO had the A I asked last night???? So I know exactly where you are coming from - why should I even have to TRY to get him to commit emotionally - why can't he just do it? I figure they detached so long ago - it's going to take a long time to come back. I did ask H not to be so negative about us and he agreed to try and work on that - we'll see. Try and find that book I mentioned - it really helped me this AM - the chapter about Relationships and open communication. It's so basic - matches a lot of Retro - I just want H to get to this part (he just started reading it)...

Take care and again slow down...baby steps and patience patience patience!!!!

Come here to vent!! I'll prop you up if you help prop me up!!!

Do something for you tonight!!!

HB