Why is it that we get days were it just seems that it would be easier to say its over? Today I am having one of those days, I have started a couple of emails to H, but haven't sent them. I just feel so overwhelmed by it all, and I am tired, as we all are. I just feel that I am tired of that little voice in the back of my head that just keeps reminding me of whats happened, and not to trust, I seem to battle with myself over trusting or not. I know my H is here and working on us the best he can, but sometimes I just feel like I am settling sometimes, that I have made so much effort and not getting the same back. He told me awhile ago he was going to put me on a pedastal because thats were I deserved to be, of course that's not what I am looking for, but sometimes I just wish he could make alittle effort..to woo me. I just would like to be spoilt alittle, flowers, little trinkets, I know its silly...and maybe selfish.
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
