When you say no to champagne....

[Umbrella24]

THIS is where I end up...afraid that my efforts are wasted or worse, afraid that I'm going to be the best DB'er in the world, give myself to my M. wholeheartedly and it's still gonna collapse

Sage, I am living this scenario. I've been going strong, DBing like a mother, and if anything, my W is further away. So why do I continue. I honestly don't know. But the point is, I do continue. I just want to know that I won't have to someday look back, and realize I could have done more. Maybe not the best reason to continue, but it's what I've got.

Jim