a little bit ago h forwarded me an e-mail. one of his friends from childhood and his wife just had a new baby last night. I'm so happy for them, but so jealous, too. no, I don't want a baby, but I'm jealous that they are having a happy time in their marriage and mine is over.
i hate myself for even thinking like that. I feel like a rotten person. I really don't begrudge them this happy time...I am thrilled for them. but apparently am self-centered enough for a bit of a pity party.
normally I would trot off to gymboree or gap.com and order a sweet little outfit for the new baby, but guess I'll leave that up to H.
so I ended up letting the kids watch a bit of animal planet while I took myself up to my room for a bit of a cry. my punishment for being so selfish is I didn't hear ups ring the bell so I missed out on the delivery I was exepcting today.
on the good news front, my friend was able to line up her dad to look at my shed roof on friday. fingers crossed it isn't to expensive. I have no idea what something like that runs, so don't even have a ballpark. it doesn't look like too big a deal, but we all know how that can go.
wow, big downer today, aren't I?
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
