hate feeling this way

[Jack_Three_Beans]

But you are dealing with it.
Really well in fact.
Do you excercise?
I got into it when all this happened, actually got into it a little before all this started, but on those days I couldn't sit still, I would get on my ellipitcal for even more time than I already had been.

I broke my first stair stepper about 14 times, and learned how to fix it on my own.
My new machine that is only a year old I have broken 4 times, and now I have to call in on the warrentee because I can't repair electronics.

The idea of mine was to turn my weaknesses into strengths, and sitting around and being all jittery, well time was that I would eat, to fill a void to occupy myself.

But...

It just occured to me, have you ever watched American Beauty?
A very inspiring movie, look deeper, than the overt depressing topic. It is about taking control of your life.

I wanted to look good naked. : ) sounds weird. But it was for me, no one else...down the road someone else might benefit but ultimately it was for me.