When you say no to champagne....

[sage]

Just wanted to post a couple of things I read on other threads as a reminder to myself...

20% of "us" give up the first time we get winded. We can't tolerate the ebb and flow of emotions.

Not sure of the stat but given where I was yesterday, I know this feeling. I forgot to keep the end goal in mind which is rebuilding my M.

And, on a related note: Someone wise wrote that they get excited when they see folks doing things (DB'ing?) despite the fear.

THIS is where I end up...afraid that my efforts are wasted or worse, afraid that I'm going to be the best DB'er in the world, give myself to my M. wholeheartedly and it's still gonna collapse -- so I retreat in fear when I encounter resistance (either his or mine). Again, a lot of what happened yesterday.

So, how'd I do? I made it through without "losing it" -- got back on the DB horse and all.

Of course, I did it through some pretty intense sadness and I will too dependent on the fact that H. "came around". Still have some detachment work to do!

Sage