new here. Feel like dying

[ms ladybug]

I suggested the letter from the psychiatrist, but, h thinks that I lied during the eval (as if a psychiatrist wouldn't be able to see that), so he wants a re-do with him present so he can see if I answer the questions honestly. God, just typing that sounds really controlling. I resisted for a couple months on that one, saying that he should know I'm honest and doing a re-do would make it seem OK that he doesn't trust me. Finally, my mc counselor told me to just go. She said that Dr. S (she knows him) would see right through h, and h would finally drop it.

H knows about the mc appt friday. I told him about it when he first gave me his "conditions" email. I thought that would be a good place for us to discuss it. He said he'd probably go. Then, the other night, when we argued, he told me to go by myself. So, yes, he knows all about it.
I'm giving him space now, and maybe he'll cool off by then, but, not getting my hopes up.

I had to go to a class last night, so I gave h the kids for the night (he's staying at his parents). After I dropped them off, h called me to ask if I'd told d4 yet. I told him no, and he got really mad, "you're just waiting for me to do it aren't you?" I told him no. I suggested we tell her together, and he said, "Oh, that would make it easier on you, wouldn't it."
I said, "nothing is going to make telling d4 'easier'".
Then, he told be I was being a b****, and that's where we left off.

Yes, he needs time to cool down. He needs to not hear from me for a couple days. The only problem with not calling him, is that d4 calls him every evening to say "good-night". So, I pretty much have to say something to him then. I think tonight I'll just tell him, "good-night" as well.