I don't want to detach from the anger, resentment and disgust. I do want to know where they come from and then I know I will be able to eventually let them go.
I am not sure that I can detach properly. I feel that I will just wake up and not love my H anymore.
As for my H coming back...I would not take back the man he is now. I don't like that person and have no desire to spend time with that person. I am better off where I am right now---with NO H. I have no idea what God's timetable is or if my H will ever come back...I just don't see it happening...but I am human and thus prone to errors!
I don't believe that I am awesome...I just believe that I am like a drowning person struggling to stay afloat...paddling so hard b/c I don't want to give in or give up on life. ALthough, I will tell you that I feel my strength waning and I so desperately want to move on with my life.
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
