Sweety, I know you long to be 'still'....this will come to you in time...this is a process...it takes time, you'll have hurdles to jump, and survive...but in time you will get where you should be...please allow yourself to feel what you feel..it helps in the process, it lets it out...
You are mourning a terrible loss and this goes together with great emotions...that is ok - if not great, because it means you CARE !!!!!!!
That's why we tell you to just get through one day at a time ! I know that it may not seem like that for you right now, but it DOES get better and easier as time passes....you have only just begun this journey...get comfortable, as it may take quite some time ....in the meantime enjoy the time that has been 'given' to you !
I hope this helps...
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
