When you say no to champagne....

[sage]

well, the paper is done. Not my best work (what do you expect when you wait until the last minute?) but at least it's finished. gonna mail it off pronto.

H. is back to ok. He approached me. I just sat on his lap (he said it was good luck) while the first inning of the red sox game was on. That's good stuff!

How can I stop screwing myself up all of the time? Is it just going to be this iterative process of making mistakes and recovering? Maybe I need to read dr again. No doubt I need to put some goals down on paper. I just keep falling back into the same old trap of obsessing over stuff -- not treating him as a friend, not valuing what he's offering, not trusting him, not hearing what he's saying.

so much good stuff goes on here and yet I end up messing up over and over and over.

arrgh. done beating myself up. gonna go hang with H.

Sage