Didn't get much sleep last night. Just keep thinking about this whole thing over and over.

I've come to the revalation that I really need to worry only about myself and the girls. I've been stuck.. I think I've finally realized that I don't need anyone else.

I love my W. That woman is not my wife. She is the complete opposite of my wife. I need to treat her like the stranger she is.

So.. I dropped D's off this morning. No big deal.. went over homework, stuff. W sat very close to me on the couch.. seemed like she was touching me with her leg.

I went to leave, and I wanted to talk to her about D5 and her "test" the parent trap. D5 will test the new parent for a couple of hours. As long as you are stern with her, she will fall in line.

Well.. we went into W's room to discuss this and I see a new dress and stuff hanging from the mirror. I should get an Oscar for how well I handled this. I asked "Oooh.. new dress. Is that for the Symphony?"

She has to go for school.. I had assumed she already went.. now I was assuming her and OM were going.

As it turns out.. she's been invited to his Xmas party at work. ARE YOU KIDDING?

Then.. she says "Well.. you didn't invite me to yours"

I honestly don't know how to react to her. I honestly didn't think she'd want to go. I told her she was more than welcome to attend.. she mentioned the symphony thing and I'm still up for it.

I must say that OM scored some cool points there.. she's always wanted an excuse to dress up. I just never made much of an effort to do that for her. My fault. I did try and remind her of Aruba and how we dressed up, but it wasn't good enough. She even said "You know how much it means to me to get dressed up"

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I left.. as I was driving into the office, it occurred to me that MIL called yesterday looking for W. I put 2 and 2 together. I texted W and asked if MIL helped her pick out the dress (W said how much fun it was picking it out). She said yes.. I asked if MIL knew what it was for and W said yes.

This got W asking questions.. like "What are you thinking?"
Me: "Lots"
W: "Fill me in"
Me: "Just surprise/confirmation on your mother. The rest is no biggie. I honestly don't think you would understand/care."
W: "Ouch-Try me!"
Me: "I've mentioned some of it before and it keeps coming up. Got a meeting. Talk later"
W: "Fine"

I just needed to end the conversation.. I don't know what to say. There is a ton I want to say, but I know it won't make a difference.

What does she want from me? Be her husband and be completely fine with OM? I don't see how you can honestly expect that.