Some days I really can't tell if I should be in piecing or some other forum. W gets so feed up with me that I won't just "get it" and leave. She figures all the work that should have been done, has already been done by her, it's just time for me to graciously accept her "edict" and move on (out) so that she can get on with her life. Of course my putting in all this effort is just putting more stress on the kids. (yeah right, all my fault).
So, should I be in piecing. Don't know, couldn't find the "dealing with an alien" section. Had to call her on a few things this evening, so things were not exactly pleasant for a little bit there, but she knows I'm still convicted. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would get to a point in my life where I have done the absolute best I could in a marriage, then still end up at a crossroads like this. I never thought that the sweet, quiet girl I met would turn into such a harsh, sour person. It tears me up to be treated like an outsider in my own home, by my W.
Sorry about the vent/rant. I guess I deserve the unloading I got tonight, I kind of got frustrated and had to push for an answer. But I do know that she was probably trying to push my buttons. Sometimes I wish I wasn't such a nice guy, I feel to often I'm used because of it. W knows I'm trying to be a better me, then works that to her advantage.
OK, rant finished.
Positives
I am getting so that I can focus better at work.
I make sure I am being the best Dad that I can be.
I have learned to stay busy so that I can't bring myself down.
Work continues on letting go. Tonight I will have to do that so that I can sleep and function tomorrow.
