Hardly faking it anymore: Puddle's third thread

[Puddle]

Hey Heim! Nice to see you back. I'll look forward to hearing about your trip.

However, and I almost hate to type this, do you think you can really and truly be happy with your H?

I'm not sure, Heim. I was pretty content before, but that was before digging into all this stuff about me and the kind of person I want to be, life I want to have, etc. Now that I'm feeling pretty good about all that, excited thinking about the kind of R I'd like to have, I'm not sure H is up to it.

From what you've written, I think you can. I primarily say that because of the emotional honesty/openness issue. If you can learn to open up to your H (providing, of course, that he eventually turn around), it looks from the outside looking in that you probably could build a good life together.

So you're thinking the happiness question is about me? I know I want emotional honesty in my life and Rs; it's something I was working toward with H before the bomb but when he was already done (needless to say, he wasn't very receptive).

Anyway, regardless of what happens with H, I know that that's something I want for myself. The truth is, I wonder whether it wouldn't be easier with someone else. I know that's typical WAS stuff, but that's where I am right now.

Anyway, just a quick thought and one that I hope doesn't put the brakes on the flirting and the sexy undies (mmmmmmmmmmmm).

Oh dear. No, no, no brakes. Again, the beauty of the whole thing is that's something that's going to benefit me (probably more than him). I'm always happy to hear your thoughts.

Your question seems to imply that you wonder less about whether I can be happy with H than whether I'll prove capable of opening up. Is that it?

Wow, ya get some nasty little divorce papers, flake out for a few days and BAM we got puddle in sexy undies???

It's all about cheering you up, CVA, to lighten things up a bit over there! But yeah, it does feel a bit like a parallel universe (and a fun one).

Take care.