He's on his way back

[DebinDenver]

Yes, my husband is on his way back home, well for awhile, anyway. He is putting the boat on "the hard" for the winter and driving back here to live with me until he starts school next summer. What a complete change from last year @ this time when he attempted to sail across the Atlantic, but only got as far as Bermuda. Bad weather forced him back - there must be a God.

We've talked about our future together. He seems really gung ho about it. Now, I know that is the bipolar thing talking. He wants to start a family again (it would have to be a donor egg @ this point). We tried adoption in 05 - 06, but he doesn't have the patience for that process.

Can't quite describe how I feel about his return. My head tells me to be happy, but my heart isn't so sure. He has made the comical comment that he is going to be paying for this for a long time. I laughed and laughed and of course agreed whole heartedly!!

What concerns me the most is the money. The money he gave me is now all but gone. Fortunately my salary was doubled temporarily for about a year to work on this project out of town. The project is about to come to an end I will go back to working for peanuts (but I did just get a 10% raise, which will take some of the sting out). Yet, that old salary + 10% will still not cover the huge mortgages on a big house. He knows this. He says he has a plan.

He has been unemployed for 1.5 years now since he has been aimlessly floating on a boat (well he did interview for school). There are tens of thousands of dollars of unpaid bills of his (fortunately my credit has not been affected). So, I just can't imagine what his plan would be. I am afraid to ask.

So, I think I must look for a better paying job that can match what I am making now with double my normal salary. That would be the only way I could keep the house,which has been on the market for over a year now. He picked a really bad time to wack out.

He asked me what would make me happy - it was a long list. My top pick was a maid. 2nd was a husband that lives with me that can honestly disclose his financial situation. I also asked for a new wedding ring to symbolize our new marriage. He says he intends to provide everything on my "happy list". That will be the day!!

Any advice from those of you with return-again spouses? I'm not even sure I want him here, which is a strange feeling. But, I told him I am willing to try again. I know he will help out with the pets and chores which will be welcomed. It has been difficult since I inherited all of his "stuff" that needs taken care of. Yes, he will be paying for this for a long time - like the rest of his life!!

Deb