yeah, I know, lwb, I know. I am banning myself for a bit. one day at a time...and today is not a day for that.
had an awesome w/o tonight. H came and I was ready to go so didn't linger. I thought at first it wouldn't be all that great...I am coming down with a cold, and it was so crowded when I got there I had to park where I didn't even know parking existed. I think everyone and their mother was there tonight. to top it off, I forgot an elastic to tie my hair back with (I hate my hair in my face when I'm sweating). It ended up being one of the best w/o's I have had in a while. I had to fight for it...to get the w/o I wanted in, I had to be a bit creative since it was so crowded, but I did and I'm so happy I did.
got home just as H was finishing putting the kids to bed. I gave them hugs and kisses while H went downstairs. I'll admit, I stalled as much as my 3 year old d did, lol. H kept loitering downstairs. He got really irritated, didn't like that d3 was stalling. I don't miss that snap irritation, so a silver lining with having him gone. I called quietly down and asked if he needed me, if not I was jumping in the shower. unfortunately, yeah, he wanted to chat. thankfully no big deal, almost seemed to just want to talk, but I kept it about the kids and had nothing else to say.
he is leaving for vegas tomorrow for business and asked if I wanted his flight info and such like last time. keep in mind, last time he went he had a complete breakdown that night here...sobbing/hysterical/scary to the point that I made him call me when he got to his mom's house that night. I wanted the info then because I think it is a good idea for someone to have your flight info/intinerary when you go somewhere. we have a good friend who left boston for LAX on 9/11, and he didn't leave his wife his flight info...trust me, it wasn't good. she didn't even know the airline he was on. thankfully, he was fine, but lesson learned.
anyway, i told him he could give it to his mom or whatever, just so long as someone had it. I almost mentioned ow's name, but didn't. for all I know she is going...don't think so, but don't know, don't care. he said he'd send it to me...whatever. I actually would rather he send it to his mom, but hey, I'll just stick the e-mail in a folder and forget about it unless it is needed (god forbid).
so that was that. he did bring the oprah tape, didn't say if he watched it and I didn't ask. when I was at the gym he took a ton of dvd's with him. not sure exactly which, he didn't tell me, I just noticed they were gone after he left. he also found his stuff in the closet in the basement where I moved it (box of cd's was rifled thru). I didn't mistreat any of his stuff, just have stuck it out of sight/out of my way. oh, and yeah, a ton of cookies were gone when I got back, too, but hey, at least he left some for the kids. maybe I'll keep on baking his favorite stuff and he'll get good and fat for ow. lol.
not much else to tell. my new flannel sheets came and I washed them and am off to put them on my bed. so I what if I don't have a man to keep me warm this winter...who needs one?!
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
