When you say no to champagne....

[sage]

Ok -- just got back from Yoga. Feeling a bit better, mainly because H. waited for me instead of going to bball practice before I got home from the gym. I was in such a negative and scared mood before I saw him - and this one small gesture made me feel ok.

This does not seem like a good thing. (the fact he made the gesture seems good -- it's my being dependent on them that isn't).

When did I lose my "core" of feeling like an ok person?

I have an opportunity coming up -- it's come about in kind of a perverse manner but -- H. is going to be spending a lot more time out of the house soon -- he's joined the guard (which means 1 weekend of the month away) and in august he'll be starting school. I know it doesn't seem particularly strong minded or db'centric but this will force me to start pulling back pieces of my life and self.

What a little basket case!!!

Sage