The Good, the Bad, and the Funny Part 6

[mkultra]

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Journaling

I really cannot stand the gossip between my family. I avoid the R talk so they step in to have the R and the affair convo with my H. Great. He basically told them how he is so unhappy that I avoid him and cannot be his freind. he said he will probably not last with his girlfriend but he just needed to experience love that was sweet and kind. That she is so nice to him and that I never respected or loved him. No matter how much his aunts and my mother said I did show love my own way he said it was not the kind of love he wanted or that he has with OW even though she is wrong for him and not the right person for him. Drugs, issues, no family acceptance, age difference. So then the Divorce talks started. They told him how much better off the kids would be if we got back together someday. he said never. They said he still had a chance because I still do not have a boyfriend but that will not last long since I am going out now. He said it will never happen even i he does leave his current girlfriend. he got to experience love that was different and that is was over with me forver. I ca accept that. My mom kept saying I had to move on and I agreed. She does not believe me. I hate that kind of gossip. they put his back against he wall and my part of the family made him talk about the child support and he mentioned he was vey broke. He would give me the house. He does not have any money now. he does not want me to be dark. he wants to visit the kids in my house. Ugh. He dos notwant to fight anymore. I remember this phase in the affair was called "Restoring balance". I knew I would dread this. he said he would file in Januay. My mother thinks he was lying abot his OW. She thinks this young girl is pressuring H to get a divorce so they can really be together. All folks involved claimed what an ugly and aged man he has become. They all suspect drugs even though his job tests for drug use.??? Another phase of divorce I guess. As they say, the blows just keep on coming. It is so hard to hear a spouse say they did not feel loved. I know I am responsible for that but it is hard to hear. My mother said the OW called three times while H was at my Bro's house dropping off the kids. She wanted to take his phone and flush it.