Well, the only reason I put all that in, was that he explicitly asked me why I think we have some sort of R.

Oh, yeah, I know why he's mad about the snooping. He keeps falling back on the old excuse of "You invaded my privacy." Honestly, I don't really care about that line anymore. Bull. (And yes, I know it's common.) Don't sleep with me, and then play cutesy cutesy with someone else. Not. Acceptable.

We have a little boy. He just turned one.

I think, on some level, I've been ignoring the nonsense because I also wanted unlimited access to my kid. I wanted to have that breastfeeding relationship. Well, he's hit the one year mark, and is on table foods now. If we can make it another year nursing...great. If we don't, I won't feel that badly about it anymore. He's already cut down considerably in frequency.

So, now my concern is, I don't want DS to think of this kind of interaction as okay. Because it's not.

I think xh will realize, eventually, that this game also means he will have limited access to his kid. I think that's where it's really going to hurt him.

And yes, I know, the dating thing is motivated by my vindictive feelings. That's why I haven't really done it, yet. I don't want to give into that side.

On the other hand...from the blank looks he gives me, he has absolutely no idea what it's like to be on this side. Maybe it would do him some good.


Azhira

my confusion