I see you've been having a tough time and so my prayers are with you
I was wondering whether you've mananged to make contact with Ruth @Hope For Hurting Marriages yet?
I got this in their (Hope For Hurting Marriages) daily message this morning & I hope you have time to read through it and/or visit this other website: "First Aid for a Wounded Marriage"
Anyways, take care & be blessed ST (and keep visiting my thread )