When you say no to champagne....

[sage]

Hey everybody -- Thanks for the support and visits! I agree that reading other people's posts and being able to say "wow, I feel that way too" is very powerful!

I'm getting my MBA part-time. I'm an electrical engineer now but want to get into some sort of business administration of non-profits. Got a LONG way to go, though!

I'm looking forward to the weekend with H. tho' I'll admit that I was just sitting in a meeting at work feeling a little nervous. Sometimes I just feel as though I can't allow myself to relax -- to be myself anymore. I know I've made some mistakes in my M. (being controlling, manipulative, not listening to H, not appreciating him) and I'm grateful to have had the chance to see my foibles and work on them -- but sometimes I feel like I'm trying TOO hard -- do you know what I mean? In my heart I feel like a good, interesting and loving person but then in my head I think to myself "contributed to M. breakdown...must DB to perfection at all times".

As others have pointed out here, I really think that the "as if" stance could have a big impact for me -- I want to turn my sorry-aSSumptions of bad stuff to GOOD stuff. H. is mesmerized by his sexy, dynamic, super-duper wife!



Sage