NikkiB #22 (almost separated)

[NikB]

I lied... one more quick post! I keep meaning to post about this.

On my Sonoma trip I was looking everywhere for some kind of memento / reminder for my new room (as SD suggested). Nothing was really "hitting" me until I was in this rock/gem store on the last day - a small polished rock with the word "Believe" carved into it. I have no idea why that particular one struck me the way it did. I would've thought "hope" or something would make more sense right now, but for some reason I just knew it as soon as I saw it that this was my reminder / souvenir.. believe in myself.

The desktop fountain I put in my room is all black rocks/slate, and the "Believe" rock is a very light color so it stands out really well. I put it in the open "pool" area of the fountain, so the "waterfall" part washes over it and you can see "Believe" behind it. It's pretty cool.

And then... at the Springsteen concert he did a song I haven't listened to in ages.

Reason to Believe
Bruce Springsteen

Seen a man standin' over a dead dog lyin' by the highway in a ditch
He's lookin' down kinda puzzled pokin' that dog with a stick
Got his car door flung open he's standin' out on highway 31
Like if he stood there long enough that dog'd get up and run
Struck me kinda funny seemed kinda funny sir to me
Still at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe

Now Mary Lou loved Johnny with a love mean and true
She said "Baby I'll work for you every day and bring my money home to you"
One day he up and left her and ever since that
She waits down at the end of that dirt road for young Johnny to come back
Struck me kinda funny seemed kind of funny sir to me
How at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe

Take a baby to the river Kyle William they called him
Wash the baby in the water take away little Kyle's sin
In a whitewash shotgun shack an old man passes away take his body to the graveyard and over him they pray Lord won't you tell us
tell us what does it mean
Still at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe

Congregation gathers down by the riverside
Preacher stands with his Bible groom stands waitin' for his bride
Congregation gone and the sun sets behind a weepin' willow tree
Groom stands alone and watches the river rush on so effortlessly
Wonderin' where can his baby be
Still at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe
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By this last verse, I was singing "still at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe" at the top of my lungs w/tears in my eyes.

Before anyone gets worried.. not believe in the sense of Mary Lou standing at the end of the dirt road... not hanging on hopelessly to a M that's over. It struck me more as no matter what happens, there's always a reason to believe that you can make your future better.