Sometimes it just helps to know someone else is out there expriencing the same issues.
The wife has mentioned a divorce before, I asked her to wait until we were in separate houses, she hasn't mentioned it since. However I am now expecting it fairly soon.
She said to me that she thought I would have found someone else by now and moved on. I replied that I had made her a promise on our wedding day and that I would not even look for anybody else until we were divorced.
With hindsight perhaps a little silly to say, but never the less it is how I feel. Plus I just couldn't face starting anything else with anybody,not to mention it wouldn't be right whilst I still have such hangups on the estranged wife.
I think alcohol may have had something to do with my downfall this time. I had a few friends over for a poker night, and I got very very drunk. I think that is were the blues started. I have decided to give it a miss for a while.
I have read DR, and I started to put things into action,however since I moved house I have let it slip. I used to go kickboxing and archery. I think I need to start it all up again.
I've come to realise though that I think I am doing these things to try and impress her more than trying to get myself a life. Don't quite know how I am going to solve that one yet, but at least I have recognised it now!
