Still trying - Not very well

[limbo]

LN first off, I don't consider you butting in!! You have very wise words, and any help and support I get are always welcome!

I do feel and know that H does love me, and I am realizing that I do need to back away again, however I can't do it to much because he will see it as being pulling away or something being wrong betweent the 2 of us.
I am at a place that I do know that if he isn't with me I will be ok, its scary though with having 2 kids. But I can make it.
I am trying to get a life as best I can, meeting a cousin tonight for dinner, which I think will be good, and possibly a confidant. But I have to just see how things go.
I am giving him space, and am trying to be supportive, I told him at anytime the c feels I need to be there I will go.
But beyond that he will have to do the work.
I also worry that the C will tell him that we aren't meant to be together and wonder what outcomes will come of that!
But it isn't worrying me to much! So am just trying to be as relaxed as I can and see what happens over the next little while.