you know, in a very very microscopic way I can sort of see why cheating spouses have such a hard time ending it with the op. If I had not said anythign he prob would've never know, the online guy, when IMing with him I was a happy care free person and had such a great time, haven't smiled or laugh so much in a while.
I actually anguised over telling him, and as of this morning, i'm actually afraid to check what he said (my msg was send when he was offline). I'm afraid that I've hurt his feelings (even though I never did promise anything nor he offered an R), I'm afraid of looking bad on his eyes.
I can't imagen what it must be like for people who actually had a physical R for months (i've only chatted IM with the guy for a week and a half and I feel a knot in my stomach) and who made promises and plans, to just come up and say "you know, I've been lying to you and this is over".
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
